Wanna share one of the things I’ve learned from ping ponging (at the most extreme 20kg) of weight and the various eating behaviours that come with that:

It might not be so easy to “just eat when you’re hungry” or
“Just eat the ‘right’ foods” etc etc.

I’ve found there to be layers of reasons why one has a complicated relationship to food (and therefore the body).
One I want to point out today is:

*We may not feel safe to be in our body.*

This lack of feeling safe may have been caused through any form of physical abuse or boundary crossing.
In my experience it is that and also the overall experience of being in a female body.

I grew up hearing stories of men who rape young children and women, being told to avoid talking to strangers,…
I also grew up then as a teenager and young woman to have boundary crossing experiences.

So whether we had direct violation of our intimate physical space or not, to me there is (in many places on earth) an energetic signature of “non-safety” in the air so our body’s security system goes on alert and this may be so chronic that we need to learn when we are actually safe and can relax…this isn’t just mentally directable stuff…it’s somatic and even generational…so deep waters.

So for women (I am not familiar enough with men’s experiences here so I am sticking to female body) it can feel inherently unsafe to have a body.
We get shamed for being fat and having cellulite.
We learned (unconscious and therefore separative) jealousy instead of appreciation if we ourselves or another woman shine health, vitality and feeling well…unless we are with women who are aware and on the journey to heal the deeply ingrained competitive imprint of separation that has infiltrated our being over the millennia 💔❤️‍🩹

We may eat to cover up beauty and radiance and our sexual aspects.

We may eat little to be invisible or to fit into society’s fucked up standards – trying to fit in because to belong is to be safe (to our primal self).

Some solutions I therefore understand are:

• Somatic healing modalities/therapy that explore and restore feelings of safety in the body and essentially get to know and hold oneself more profoundly
• Reconnecting to and awakening the animal body – so important to come back to instinctual intelligence
• People who make us feel safe and seen
  ☞ by having good communication
  ☞ by being okay with our imperfect “darker” aspects as well as being supportive of our soul, body, heart and mind well-being
  ☞ people to whom we can be that, too
• being in nature 💚